Wow. What a day. Well, today I said goodbye to a lot of people I care about more than I can describe. I won't go into detail, but it's a pretty big change that has finally arrived. Everyone was in tears, and even though I felt miserable, I couldn't bring myself to cry. Maybe because I feel that it's not the end. We'll still keep in contact and make the effort to see each other. But deep down I know some things will never be the same, and none of us will be as close as we once were to those who are going different routes. It's hard to describe. Anyway, maybe it's this foolish optimism that kept me from crying. Or maybe it's the sheer fact that I still can't grasp that summer has arrived. I can now wear light dresses because it's getting hot out there. I have more time on my hands, and that means I can go outside and explore. I can delve into DIY's and sit at home and catch up on recorded shows. I can barbeque, and yes, I can write. So, you'd think summer coming would've been something I was looking forward to, awaiting. But the truth is it's been at the back of my mind for so long, because I've been dreading this date as well as hoping for it, that now that it's here, I don't feel it's real. It's all so crazy, but I guess I have to except that there is no going back in this life. So here's to moving forward, and a one week break from the grind.
Kisses,
Anonymous
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